I've not posted here in a while... sorry... I usually post at my main blog. Email me for location to this place.
In other news. My Turkey day was great. I can actually say everything was ediable. I enjoyed it.
Nothing much new.. just been addicted to an online game that I spend too many hours in.
I can't get over the fact that she, assuming it's her, was in my stuff. What's her obsession? Why the fuck does she want to find out every little detail of my life? As if my main blog wasn't good enough for her. She lives there, practically visiting every 5 minutes.
See, this woman, her and I have a past. That is, she lives within the shadows of the old me. Going around doing the things that I used to do, date the men that I used to date. She won't talk to me. And when she does, it usually follows rude comments mentioned behind my back. I can't understand why someone with such a high obsession rate would do such deliberate things. Actually I can.
You see, I used to date this guy and when we split I hated him for the longest time. I guess I had a problem with getting over him. I wanted to know the littlest details of his new life and how it was going with out me. I was jealous. That my friends, is the key point. JEALOUSLY. I was jealous at the fact that he was moving on, living a life without me. But why is she so jealous of me? She didn't settle for my old flame, did she? Did she think that she could just go around dating whomever I did, after I had finished them, hoping to gain the life I'm living? No. That's absurd. Why doesn't she just marry me instead... hehe, that's probably her problem... she had a secret 'crush' on me. HAHAHAHA.
Well, I don't know what she sees in me that she thinks she needs. I don't have anything to be overly excited about.
Things haven't been going too bad lately. Just been real busy with various things. I'm not sure why I got so distraught last month. Must be PMS or something and bad timing. But it never really bothered me beyond that... oh well.
I think someone's been snooping in my email accounts. I noticed this the other day while checking my yahoo. Some settings where changed. I was totally pissed. I can maybe gather who, but not really pinpoint exactly. She's a bitch anyway. I can't believe she's sick enough to do something like this. Gawd, she so needs thearapy. Oooh, sorry... but you know... nothing would satisfy me more than to post the quoted above onto my main blog. She lives there. Spying on me constantly. I wonder if I did post that, would the numbskull realize I was talking about her... Maybe then she'd get the picture and just forget about me.
Oh, I also know someone's been messing with my accounts because last night I was trying to log on to MSN and my hotmail account was froze. Haha, nice try. I have changed all passwords.
As this week draws to an end, I'm becoming more OK with the events that will be going on. Meaning, I'm accepting them and just living life as if it's any other day. I shouldn't of ever gotten depressed in the first place. It was dumb. I know I have what I've wanted. It is my business. Those who have green envy over me, well, you have problems. (Or refuse to befriend me, well, that's your loss)
It's stupid to maul over something that you have no control over, because it's going to happen whether you want it to or not. It's annoying how you get frustrated first then have everything come into place once you work things out, personally. It would be much more reasonable to have the things be worked out first so that you don't get frustrated to begin with. Just annoying.
Enjoy, peace and be happy! In the end that's the important thing. If you're happy, truthfully, then I can only swallow my pride and say congradulations.
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You know... I've been thinking. If you hate someone, you usually have a reason- but generally people hate others because they want to mask a feeling of love in some form.
Now maybe I don't really hate certian people. Actually, I've never hated anyone...
This may make little sense to anyone but me- hey, it's my journal- it should make sene to me, right?
I guess as I sit here in my moment of saddness, I shouldn't be. Because maybe some who have respect for me are just too afraid to show it. Why? I must of intimidated them somepoint in time. I'm not that bad of a person. Least, I try not to be... If I've offended you, I never hold grudges for forever.
I'm wondering if some messages are messages to people in, not so much sibliminal, but to ask of general point? Sometimes... Maybe? I could be way out in left field here... but if you want to ask me of something- don't be afraid to just ask me. The worst I could say is No- that's not so harmful is it?
"Can you help me find a way... to carry on again..."
Need more damn money! There something seriously messed up with today's society. Who wants to work all their lives just to pay off bills and then some. Unless you inhiret millions, you're always in debt- having to pay of SOMETHING... be it a car, house, loans or whatnot. It's never hassle free.
There's just so much going on this year that I want to do and can't without a little bit of money. It sucks. But that's life. I guess I'll have to live with it.
If you can't get them to work, go with someone else! So I did. My comments box thing wasn't working to my specifications, I moved to another provider. This one seems to be working much better. For now...